Time doesn't heal. I haven't felt able to read the stories on here for such a long time, I wrote them at a time of intense grief and shock, reading takes me back to that intense pain. But it also helps me feel closer to you, I love thinking about you. I wish I could remember more of the good, the precious little memories, every second I spent with you happily. Sadly I mostly remember the day you passed away, I remember all the little details of that day and I can visit that time anytime, anywhere, the pain is unbearable. I have learnt that time will never mend my broken heart but I am learning to keep the pain safe within me, balancing it into my life. I look at your beautiful pictures, I visit your grave, I'll always dream of you. My love for you will never end. Sweet dreams little man xxx