I have felt many things over the last few months. Moving from one emotion to the next. Right now i'm so frustrated! I want my son and there is nothing i can do. I want to mother him and i can't. Since he passed away i feel like i've been fighting for survival, now i have less fight, anger and frustration is taking over me. Why did this happen to us, Why my precious boy? What did he ever do to deserve this? What did he learn from his short life? Why? Why? Why? Is there really a God? if there is why would he do this? If there was something i'd done, then why not punish me. Matteo was completely innocent, sweet, he had a pure soul, how could God take him away from his family. Feel so terrible, all these awful questions with no answers.